A Letter to my Family

 

 

I am a heroin addict and I need your help.

 

Don’t allow me to lie to you and accept it for the truth. Otherwise, I am encouraged to lie.  The truth may be painful, but grasp it anyway.

 

Don’t let me outsmart you. This only teaches me to avoid responsibility and to lose respect for you at the same time.

 

Don’t let me exploit you or take advantage of you. Otherwise, you become an accomplice to my evasion of responsibility.

 

Don’t lecture me, moralize, scold, praise, blame, or argue when I’m high or sober. And don’t hide my drugs; you may feel better, but the situation will be worse.

 

Don’t accept my promises. This is just my method of postponing pain. And don’t keep switching agreements. If an agreement is made, stick to it.

 

Don’t lose your temper with me. It will destroy you and any possibility of helping me.

 

Don’t allow your anxiety for us to compel you to do what I must do for myself.

 

Don’t cover up or abort the consequences of my addiction. It reduces the crisis, but perpetuates the illness.

 

Above all, don’t run away from reality as I do. My illness gets worse as I continue to use. Start now to learn, to understand, and to plan for my recovery. I need help from others who are well-versed on addiction.  I cannot help myself.

 

I hate myself, but I love you. To do nothing is the worst choice you can make for us.

 

Please help me,

Your heroin addict